Wendigo

Umm...so I went to check my messages, and I think I posted that photo of myself on my own page. It was when "Doris" went down. D'oh! So, here it is again, just in case:

PREPARE TO BE HORRIFIED!



I hope that works...

It's not too bad being here. I was raised Mormon, but it's kinda funny - my mom was raised in SLC, but was NOT Mormon (she converted when she was 18) and is a liberal democrat. My dad, however, was raised in Berkeley, CA, and went to UC Berkeley during all the protests for the Vietnam war, but he was raised Mormon and is a more conservative republican. Anyhow - the family on my mom's side here are, for the most part, not Mormon, and very liberal. Any place where the majority is one way, you'll end up with a very vocal minority that strives to be the opposite way.

But I don't like SLC - the air is too dry, I hate the heat in the summer, and I want to live where everything is more green. If Canada doesn't work out, I think I may head to the Pacific Northwest.

I really don't think he'll want to be in her life. His family has no idea of her existence, and so far he's only told one woman he dated (and I think that's because she questioned him about why money was missing from his paycheck each month). I'm much nicer in the things I say about him - if you were to hear from a couple of my friends, they'd only use cuss words to describe him.

I'm not a registered Native - I was adopted into a white family, and I've had a really tough time getting info from my birth mother. She's kind of nutty and a bit of a bitch. She won't give me my birth father's name, either, even though he was in her life for awhile, and wanted to marry her, and even got a lawyer to try and keep me from being adopted. I'm in the process of asking for birth records from the state, so hopefully I can find out more info.

I'm sure you're back from the potluck already - but I always just take drinks to things like that - or chips, or something. I'm a good cook, but I'm too lazy to actually cook.

So where did you grow up? And if you could live ANYWHERE, where would you live?

I'll try and get some photos uploaded. I took a couple of myself in the "myspace fashion" at 1:30am, with no make-up on, and crazy hair. So I look just loverly.

Hey Cutie!

How do you upload pictures on here? Do I have to first get a photobucket account, or something?

M's dad wasn't interested in being a dad. He really wanted me to get an abortion, and was kind of an ass about it. He has never wanted to meet her, and has only accepted one picture of her when she was around a year old (he refused a picture another time I offered, and hasn't asked for one, ever). He pays child support each month though, and hasn't missed a payment. I think he's more scared of his mom finding out he has a kid, than he actually cares about taking responsibility.

sad face to your friend - it can't be healthy to want to be slapped in the face. And the guy who likes doing stuff like that to women can't be healthy either!

Alberta sounds like it's a whole lotta nothing with a few cities scattered about - but I'm a bit of a recluse and I like nature, so it might work out well for me. I'll start looking into jobs there. I'm not sure if anyone would hire someone from out of the country, but here's hopin'!

Well - I don't know if it's such a bad attitude to think I'll never be thin. I really just want to feel healthy. If I feel healthy, I know I'll be ALOT healthier than I am right now, and that's my ultimate goal - to be healthy, and just feel comfortable as I am. And I kinda want a guy who wouldn't mind pattin' my tummy anyhow!

How big is the city you're in? What kind of stuff do you like doing besides mixing alcohols on a Friday night?

PS - Send me a photo of you. All I can picture is that "cool cat" rat.

I read the other day that people who weighed themselves every day lost more weight and kept it off, than those who don't, so I'm trying to remember to weigh myself every morning. Especially because if I keep forgetting and don't weigh myself for a week, then I get really nervous and try to avoid the scale.

Umm - being spanked and being hit are too VERY different things. So if she meant spanked, good deal - if she meant hit, then she may have been abused previously. A lot of women who like to actually be hit during sex were sexually abused when they were younger. So, obviously, not good.

My daughter is Miranda. She's a cutie and super smart. That's a picture of her to the left (she was being a walrus by putting straws in her mouth).

I think I would like Alberta! Mostly because Jasper is there! I moved to SLC hoping to get up to Jackson, WY and Yellowstone more often (it's six hours away), but no cigar - six hours means staying at least one night over, and it's just too expensive. But if I lived in Edmonton or Calgary, I'd only be two to three hours from Jasper (of course I could live in Jasper itself, but it's so small, jobs may be scarce).

I like my feet, because my toes go down in a nice line, rather than the second toe being longer than the big toe (I always think those toes look bad in sandals - sorry if those are the kind of toes you have) - but I still wouldn't want anyone kissing them, and I certainly don't want to kiss anyone else's toes. Egad.

Body shame is at least somewhat motivating. I want to just get down to a size where I feel good about myself, and not like I have to worry so much about what other people think. I know I shouldn't worry about what other people think, but I still do. And get to the point where a guy could touch my stomach and I woudln't go, "No no no no no no no no...let's not ever do that again..." Which doesn't take much, honestly. I will never ever be thin, or look good in a bathing suit, but I can get to the point where I'm comfortable in my own skin. Hell - I remember like, a year after I had my daughter not worrying about how my body looked, and it certainly didn't look great AND I was still overweight - so I guess I just need to go from that dreaded obese catagory to the less offensive "overweight" catagory.

So, I could always tell you if I've lost any pounds, and you can always tell me if your clothes are fitting a little looser!

I'm totally laughing at the naughty sissy part. Yea - I'm not so into that. I still like my men to be men. Actually - I'm not really into the whole domination/submission thing - I'm really just into having good sex. I tried some of those sites before, and actually met a couple friends on there (real friends, not friends), but for the most part, guys just wanted to make me kiss their feet, or something. Errm...no thanks.

Nice on the pay part. I used to earn about the USD equivilent to that, until the recession hit and I got my loser job. I'll start looking at that website you gave me this weekend, and get my resume out. I'd honestly rather live in a city that's a bit easier to access, but Whitehorse didn't look too bad. Yellowknife (I think that was the name...) was ok - the third was just wayyyy too far out there. And too cold.

Honestly, without getting into my body shame too much, I'm doubting we're in the same boat. Let's put it this way - I don't think Urban Outfitters offers my size. So yea...

I don't have a beer issue - I have a fry issue. Not fried foods in general, just fries. I love french fries. Arrgggg. I'm actually fairly good about not eating too much red meat, or other fried foods, or ice cream/donuts/etc. - but I'm really bad about eating fries. I tried to give up fries for Lent (I've never done Lent before, and I thought maybe it would be some motivation), but it totally didn't work when three days after Lent started, I realized I had eaten fries the night before. D'oh!

We should chronicle how many pounds we're able to lose each week with one another. That might give me some motivation! I'd rather be able to honestly say I lost at least one pound, then have to say I lost zero.

Luckily for me then that I usually don't wear socks in summer, and have about 3 winter pairs on rotation! They're all fuzzy socks in bright colours too, like green and black striped, or pink and purple striped. You have dogs? Cute! What kinds?

Well then the joke's on you because my wardrobe is lame. haHA

HOLEY MOTHER OF GOUDA why would you do that?

Well - I'd have to get the Spanx out to get the pencil skirt on.

Being a librarian tech would be nice. I worked in a library when I was in high school for a semester, and loved it. I'm a book hoarder - I have a ton of books I haven't even gotten around to reading yet, but I can't NOT buy them. I don't want to pry, and I don't need an exact figure - but do library techs earn fairly good money?

I only asked about fetishes because a lot of girls who like to dominate, also love to see the men in ladies undies. Some don't - but I think it's fairly common. Anyhow - something to think about if you're looking for a lady who loves men in women's clothing.

The gym five days a week is insane! (Insanely good, not bad.) I'm starting to do a bit more, but I'm going slow so I don't burn myself out, and then screw up all the progress I've made. I'm eating better (not great - but overall, I'm eating less calories than I used to) and I'm walking up and down the stairs a million times at work. I've lost 23 pounds, and kept it off, but I've sort of plateaued. I need to seriously step it up though - there's no snow on the ground, so I really should start walking around the block - maybe my kid and I can make it a game to see who can get around first, or something.

I'm still jealous - deal with it!