You're not supposed to get used to them. Pain is your body not giving up. When that pain stops, you know something's gone very wrong. You're not supposed to get used to them. You shouldn't have to.
I know!! i'm so excited!!!
Ugh, catholic... I hate religion. I think i'd just 'accidently' get myself suspended. I hate praying when no one's listening, i hate the way the church exploits its power; I hate the system.
Luckily, i come from quite an unreligious family. Sure, we do xmas and easter and lent and whatnot, but then again - who doesn't in this day and age? Most religions are very similar anyway.
I can agree with that. I was excited, now I'm bored.
They're just going to try to scare you about all the "Pain and hard work" that you'll have to put into them!
I know I should, but it's one of my little OCD(ish) habits. I don't think I have OCD, but it's just a little obsessive compulsion to be stick thin, unnaturally thin, it's not a beauty thing, I don't care about looks, just my mind can't let me look like this, I'm trying to eat, I really am.
I'll try my best not to cut, I really will. I promise!
Cutting is so much relief, the physical pain takes your mind off everything else, like pinching yourself to stop yourself from feeling the pain of wearing heels for a long time.
I'm really really going to try, I promise.
Ha! Yup, I'm fitting in okay...
Hell yeah! Saturday is the best!
Going to a CoE school is like Christmas! So much religion and prayers!
School's... school. Never the most desirable place to be.
It's alright, but i wish they'd stop being so doom and gloom about our GCSEs...
Rosy, I'm not being funny, and I don't want to hurt your feelings, but that's awful. Eat, for god's sake. You can't deprive your body of the food it needs to make the energy that keeps it running. The less food you take in the less energy you'll have. You'll get more and more lathargic and feel like everything is on top of you and out of your control. Simply eating more can cure those, before they even begin (if they haven't already).
You shouldn't have told me about the self-harming. I'm never going to shut up now. You've done so so well, you know that? Why do you want to self-harm again? Nobody else wants this for you. You are so bright, so nice and kind - why are you doing this to yourself? I can't stay impartial anymore, Rosy. I can't offer any more unbiased advice. This is so much up to you. I can't stop you, but you need to know that you can't do this to yourself. Please please don't. I don't want to wake up one day and never get another message from you again, because you punctured the wrong artery, sliced the vein. I like you, Rosy. People actually like you and enjoy your banter.
Ok, just tell me why you want to cut yourself again... please?
That's a specialist school, isn't it? I'm sure you'll fit in fine... Oh shit, i didn't mean that how it sounded!! I just meant i think you're a nice girl and will find some great friends.
Oh what?! No way! Mine weren't! lol I'm so so excited!! I'm going on Saturday. You are as well aren't you?
I've been better, I now have one meal a day on school days, and two on weekends My stomach hurts so much
I think I'm going to start self harming again, but in a different place so that my sister doesn't see it...
The new school is okay, I've found the group of people I think I want to join, and so join them I will!
How are you?
Turns out the Wembley tickets were a scam but they didn't take our money, and my dad got us some more, with cushioned seats and all!
Ha! I only have it when buy food and phones, and not having to open it there and then! Otherwise, I have so little patience, my sister thinks I have OCD (along with my neat-freak nature!)
Unfortunately, some people just do it for the money though